This might be my last post...

I was reading over my posts since I started this xanga in 2006

and I realized a lot of things...

Of course I was never in love with Johnny.

I was NEVER really mad at Alex
Just the fact that I didn't know why I liked him
or why I felt closer to him in less then a year
Then I did with anyone else in...2-3 years?

I still have mixed emotions about my dad

Borges was never really a father
(I'm not looking to replace my dad anymore... leave me alone)

Friends come and go
and you think you know someone
but... they screw up and.. eh

I never got to take that pledge
&& I got my hopes up >.>
But you know what?
I AM ready for it... Your just an asshole

When I like someone
and they mess up
I'm too much of a coward to tell anyone how I feel

When I broke up with Alex the first time
Everyone was telling me how much of a retard he was
and never asked if I still liked him
(but it was for the better anyways)

First impressions are always wrong
& I hate the way I forget that

I think that's it....

<3

News Flash

Stop trying to be a father

go fuck yourself.

Your nothing like my dad

You never will be.

Give it up

.

P.S.

Fuck this Xanga

I'm making another one.

I swore since day one of our relationship...

that if someone wasn't happy for us

and didn't like us being together

I'd forget about them.

But...

how do I forget about my best friend?

I finally know what's been bothering me...

somedays

i just dont feel

good enough

for you.

you know what?

fuck.

YOU.